Visiting The Mother with Super Silver Haze.

This is what I saw:

Just before you get incarnated, you descent as a thin thread towards this dimension.
Wether it is after death or a fresh incarnation, you get to choose "how" you get connected and which emotional path you will attach yourself to.
Excitement or fear.
So, the feeling in your belly -the fysical atachment at your umbilical cord- will remind you of your initial choice: Joy or Fear.
Then you go all thru the fiber of space, time. From a very thin silky thread to more complex firm thread, combined from other threads.
Inside the thread, the Flower of Life structure is maintened over and over again, expanding the width of the threads.

Those threads arrange in a torrus field structure, functioning like tubes, spiraling around until they start forming the first matter in the form of a littlle cradle.
This cradle contains your first little escence of your 'self'. The cradle is placed on a rollercoaster-like track. It has an extension which can bind to the track but only if the hook of the track fit perfectly.
Until then, the cradle rushes violently down the track, reducing the possibilities to actual concieve a body for this little soul.
The fast track feels frightening for the little soul.
It can feel the falling and hear the failling clicks of the hook.
The soul doesn't know what will happen to it if it fails to connect.
So it sits there in fear.
So i decided to go and console the little spirit.
"Don't worry" I told it. "If it doesn't hook, it will be fantastic, and if it DOES hook, it will be even more fantastic! Don't be affraid. Look outside. Look at how you are falling.".
Then the little spirit smiled at me and got aware of the exciting feeling in his belly.

That's when the fear in my belly transformed into pure excitement.